Currently Listening To: “Lost Boy” -Ruth B
Hey. It’s been a bit since I’ve written any kind of proper post. October was hectic and I’ve been busy and in a slump. But I’ve recently been coming out of my blocked and depressive state. I’ve been finishing short stories and abandoned sketches and creating new. I cannot sleep, so I thought I’d sit here and tell you guys about some things that have happened the past month and other things.
So, first was that I was in a creative slump and block. I had no ideas for all my current projects. All my stories got put aside and I struggled with doing the things I already had done/things I enjoyed. Even though I love this season, the loss of daylight kills me. I love being outside, but the cold temps and short daylight are shit. On the warmer days I got outside and raked leaves to jump into them. Still haven’t been in the woods lately, even though I think the whole clown thing is settling down. That’s just too much for my little anxious spaz self.
I also finally recieved my big, dream, Goth, boots. Fucking love them. I’ve been wearing them religiously and loving it. They’re super easy to walk in and I’m tall! As long as my little sister doesn’t put on her heels, I’m as tall as her, hehe 😀 I bought them from Drew Disaster and they are perfect. *o*
Speaking of little sister. Guess who got her first job? 😀 Whee! I’m so happy. She started on Halloween, so I went trick-or-treating alone, but I brought her plenty candy back.
I love my costume this year. I was a Forest Fae. I made the bulk of it from a 2xl pair of pants from the thrift store and then random scraps of fabric I had around. And who knew I had boobs? I surely didn’t, but it looks like I have some in the picture. Woop! The power of illusion!
I also adore my make-up, especially the brows. I may need to just do this make-up regularly. I feel so pretty c:
Brows. I have been loving my brows this month. They look pretty cool :3
Especially those bat brows. I wore those so much this past month. They’re super easy and gorgeous.
So, earlier in the school year, I finished three clases in one week. That meant I needed to pick a few more (I only have elective credits left to get). I decided to take German. It was the only thing that really piqued my interest. One of my favorite artists (Anna Blue) is German and I’d love to listen to her German versions of her songs instead of the English. I have two friends in Germany, and Germany is on the list of places to visit (after Japan and Ireland :3). It can’t hurt to learn a new language.
This fucking U with two dots over it. Like the explanation they gave for prouncing it… “Pronounced by rounding lips as if to whistle and without moving lips, say the ee in bee” It does not sound any different than if I were to not purse my lips and say the ee sound. Everything else is pretty easy picking up, but this goddamn U. It’s pissing me off.
Also, in the middle of me working through the class, someone decides to fucking update the program and I lose all progress I made. When I first saw that it showed I had no progress, I started panicking and it was just not a good morning. My mom was contacting people who weren’t very helpful and just insinuated that I hadn’t even started the class, even though I have a notebook filled with the goddamn notes. So I had to go back through and redo the classes to get my progress back, so that no teachers would yell at me for not having any progress.
Fuck you whoever decided that in the middle of the year was a good time to update the fucking program. You probably fucked up everyone’s fucking progress. I was damn near an anxiety attack. Fuck you. And you know what, the new program fucking sucks. It doesn’t give all the translations and it’s very hard on my eyes and my grasping of the language. The old was perfectly fine the way it was. (needs to take a breather, she cannot properly construct a coherent sentence without the word fuck)
Anyone, let’s move onto something happier and less stressful.
I wanna buy this pattern and make a million of these. I don’t need a million, but I want a million anyway.
The girl modeling the hoods even looks like a pixie(I want her face)! I neeed this pattern. I wanna make a pixie hooded dress. :c Gaaah. These are so cute! (more incoherent babbling)
I also have two little exciting pieces of news. One I’m going to save for later. But I’ll let you guys in on the other one. c:
I have started undergoing setting up an online store. I’ve been working hard on getting pictures and listing everything. Right now it’s just the jewelry (it will be utter hell listing all those bows). I have a few clothing pieces up too. All I need to do is take a trip to the post office to get some quotes on shipping prices so I can set up shipping prices. After that, I will be opening the store and you guys will be the first to know. c: I am really excited for this and cannot wait to get started on this new endeavor. I hope you guys will find something as well if you’re interested. I may even add some of my old clothes as well (a yard sale full of babybat clothes doesn’t sell well…)
Hopefully I can get that all set up soon.
So I think I’ve said everything I need to. Hopefully I will get back to regular posts and even posting some short stories soon. c: I’m slowly getting my creative spark back and some of my motivation. So maybe keep an eye out for all that. c: Now I need to get to bed. It’s nearly two a.m., haha.