Late Night Ramblings…

Currently Listening To: “Lost Boy” -Ruth B


Hey. It’s been a bit since I’ve written any kind of proper post. October was hectic and I’ve been busy and in a slump. But I’ve recently been coming out of my blocked and depressive state. I’ve been finishing short stories and abandoned sketches and creating new. I cannot sleep, so I thought I’d sit here and tell you guys about some things that have happened the past month and other things.


So, first was that I was in a creative slump and block. I had no ideas for all my current projects. All my stories got put aside and I struggled with doing the things I already had done/things I enjoyed. Even though I love this season, the loss of daylight kills me. I love being outside, but the cold temps and short daylight are shit. On the warmer days I got outside and raked leaves to jump into them. Still haven’t been in the woods lately, even though I think the whole clown thing is settling down. That’s just too much for my little anxious spaz self.

I also finally recieved my big, dream, Goth, boots. Fucking love them. I’ve been wearing them religiously and loving it. They’re super easy to walk in and I’m tall! As long as my little sister doesn’t put on her heels, I’m as tall as her, hehe 😀 I bought them from Drew Disaster and they are perfect. *o*


Speaking of little sister. Guess who got her first job? 😀 Whee! I’m so happy. She started on Halloween, so I went trick-or-treating alone, but I brought her plenty candy back. 


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I love my costume this year. I was a Forest Fae. I made the bulk of it from a 2xl pair of pants from the thrift store and then random scraps of fabric I had around. And who knew I had boobs? I surely didn’t, but it looks like I have some in the picture. Woop! The power of illusion!

I also adore my make-up, especially the brows. I may need to just do this make-up regularly. I feel so pretty c:

Brows. I have been loving my brows this month. They look pretty cool :3
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Especially those bat brows. I wore those so much this past month. They’re super easy and gorgeous.


So, earlier in the school year, I finished three clases in one week. That meant I needed to pick a few more (I only have elective credits left to get). I decided to take German. It was the only thing that really piqued my interest. One of my favorite artists (Anna Blue) is German and I’d love to listen to her German versions of her songs instead of the English. I have two friends in Germany, and Germany is on the list of places to visit (after Japan and Ireland :3). It can’t hurt to learn a new language. 


This fucking U with two dots over it. Like the explanation they gave for prouncing it…  “Pronounced by rounding lips as if to whistle and without moving lips, say the ee in bee” It does not sound any different than if I were to not purse my lips and say the ee sound. Everything else is pretty easy picking up, but this goddamn U. It’s pissing me off.

Also, in the middle of me working through the class, someone decides to fucking update the program and I lose all progress I made. When I first saw that it showed I had no progress, I started panicking and it was just not a good morning. My mom was contacting people who weren’t very helpful and just insinuated that I hadn’t even started the class, even though I have a notebook filled with the goddamn notes. So I had to go back through and redo the classes to get my progress back, so that no teachers would yell at me for not having any progress. 

Fuck you whoever decided that in the middle of the year was a good time to update the fucking program. You probably fucked up everyone’s fucking progress. I was damn near an anxiety attack. Fuck you. And you know what, the new program fucking sucks. It doesn’t give all the translations and it’s very hard on my eyes and my grasping of the language. The old was perfectly fine the way it was. (needs to take a breather, she cannot properly construct a coherent sentence without the word fuck)


Anyone, let’s move onto something happier and less stressful.

I wanna buy this pattern and make a million of these. I don’t need a million, but I want a million anyway.

The girl modeling the hoods even looks like a pixie(I want her face)! I neeed this pattern. I wanna make a pixie hooded dress. :c Gaaah. These are so cute! (more incoherent babbling)


I also have two little exciting pieces of news. One I’m going to save for later. But I’ll let you guys in on the other one. c: 


I have started undergoing setting up an online store. I’ve been working hard on getting pictures and listing everything. Right now it’s just the jewelry (it will be utter hell listing all those bows). I have a few clothing pieces up too. All I need to do is take a trip to the post office to get some quotes on shipping prices so I can set up shipping prices. After that, I will be opening the store and you guys will be the first to know. c: I am really excited for this and cannot wait to get started on this new endeavor. I hope you guys will find something as well if you’re interested. I may even add some of my old clothes as well (a yard sale full of babybat clothes doesn’t sell well…)

Hopefully I can get that all set up soon.


So I think I’ve said everything I need to. Hopefully I will get back to regular posts and even posting some short stories soon. c: I’m slowly getting my creative spark back and some of my motivation. So maybe keep an eye out for all that. c: Now I need to get to bed. It’s nearly two a.m., haha.

Bye guys~


~Samm Sanity


Just Talking (Kind of old….)

~Shit, I thought I posted this xD Over a month old…. Ah well, I’ll just add to it~

Currently Listening To: “Sippy Cup” -Melanie Martinez



~>New Stuff……

I’ve been obsessed with this song and the music video since it was posted. ><

I’ve been having the worst difficulties with my phone. First if all, I haven’t been able to turn it off for over a week. The button to do so acts like it’s stuck in the down position. I can’t push it down any further to turn off my phone and I tried to gently pull it back up with my jewelry pliers and nothing…

This also links (I think) into the other problem I’ve been having. I cannot get my pictures and videos to transfer to my computer. I have two videos I need to get on here and a few photos and it’s frustrating. Usually when I plug my phone into here, a file opens up automatically with all my photos and videos. It hasn’t been doing that since I haven’t been able to turn off my phone. I can email the photos to myself. But when I try to email the videos I keep getting a message saying my videos are too long to email myself. I believe the longest videos it will send without that error message popping up is one minute… -.-“

It sucks so bad, I like to turn my phone off at bedtime and once or twice during the week to give it a rest. It’s been on for over a week and it’s starting to piss me off. >.< I don’t know what to do or how to fix it. I’m not a smartphone kind of person. I prefer my slide phone and computer  x.x|| Help me…. ;-;

I’ve gotten all my newest Halloween additions (one of said videos stuck on my phone) set up and situated. I cleaned up my shelf and got everything all pretty ^u^ I’ve also been decorating my coffin boxes and plan to get another set. (once I can get photos emailed, I will show you guys in another post today possibly)

I just went back to school shopping and was planning to do a post on the clothes…. but again, phone’s being an ass, so I haven’t even tried to take any pictures yet. Plus, most of it is just new boyshorts/thongs and new bras. (I went down another size… 34A now. >.< I kind of miss my C’s….)  I was having trouble finding any 32Bs. The one bra I really wanted (it has lace-y skulls on it 0u0), the only small size they had left was 34A, so I tried that on after twenty minutes of anxiety ridden searching for any B’s. But a 34A fit so much better than the 32B. My 32B bras were loose fitting already and I just bought them a little bit ago. So yeah, I’m glad I have a proper fitting bra now. I even did all the tests in the fitting room (my sister gave me a look when I said this ~ she didn’t know there were fitting tests xD)

I went during the tax-free holiday weekend, so I assume all the skinny bitches (this is not meant as an insult, it’s meant playfully… calm all your tits) cleaned out the bra section. A lot of C’s and D’s were all that were left. But I did manage to find a set of black and neon green thongs clearanced out. Super happy about that one ^u^


~>(waaaaay) Older Stuff….

Hey guys. Just thought I’d sit here and ramble about all the things that aren’t enough for separate posts on their own and that I haven’t talked about since my diy and make-up kick.

The other day at the store, my mom and I were getting a cart and we saw a kid about my size crawling into a cart. Then once he was in the cart, he had to lean back out so that the dad could bring the back of the cart back down (y’all know what I mean, right? walmart’s carts?) Anyway, my mom gave me a questioning glance and I just shrugged. She asked me if the kid was a little too big to be crawling into the cart (considering he had to lean back out of the cart just so it could be shut…). We were just having this quiet conversation, we weren’t being assholes or anything, my mom was just genuinely curious (again, considering the kid had to flipping lean right back out of the goddamn cart). We weren’t even talking all that loud and some lady whips around and gets all bitchy with my mom saying “It’s called Autism!”

At the time I didn’t even understand what she had just said, because her accent was too thick, but my mom did. I was mad when my mom told me what she had said.

That lady haaad to be eavesdropping. She was nowhere around us and we were fucking whispering. And another thing ~ don’t you fucking talk to my mom like that.  She knows very well what Autism is and you have no right to be getting bitchy with her when she was just asking ME a fucking question ~ In. Fucking.  PRIVATE. Goddamn….

Yes, I was pissed off for the rest of the day.


I also had a big scare with my dick kitten roommates the other night. One of them had a seizure and the rest were covered in shit, and piss, and vomit and so scared. I was so scared at the time and just crying so much. I thought the poor thing was dying and stiffening up because it was like twitching and flopping around. It was so scary. I did not have a good night. The next morning (I ended up locking myself out of the house going to check on them) I went outside to check on them and all of them were running around being little terrors to the big cats outside. The one that had a seizure was okay and just sitting in the middle of the porch. When she did walk she was a little wobbly, but after 2-3 days she’s walking just fine again and playing along with the others.

Now they’re all outside (I miss my kitten roommates ~ although I don’t miss waking up to the smell of shit in the morning) and they’re all feeling so much better. It’s been a few days since it happened and the’re all back to being little assholes and full of energy (especially my little baby, Rebel).


As for make-up posts, I’ve decided I may just compile a week’s worth of looks into one post and only explain how I did it if necessary. Plus, I’m not a beauty kind of blog, and I don’t even know what I’m doing. I just started doing them because I liked my make-up that day. So, instead of beauty-blog-like posts, I’m just going to list all the looks in one post and explain if necessary. Maybe the smae for OOTD’s, which have kind of just moved to my Tumblr…. Although I haven’t been posting on there either….



That’s it for now. Um, let me know what’s going on in your worlds, below. c: I shall talk to you soon. Bye!! *waves*


SGTC Forever,

Samm Sanity

Updates and Adorable-ness

Currently Listening To: “Uneasy” -Jayy Von


I’ve been quite obsessed with this song lately. I’m out of my non-stop listening to Vocaloid and now it’s non-stop Jayy Von. I suppose that’s not such a bad thing. 


No, I have not abandoned this blog, I’ve just haven’t had anything to say and work has started back up! Woo! Plus it’s been in the fifties here and I have been taking advantage of that.

Also, I have been having a shit ton of fun experimenting with make-up. If any of y’all stalk my Tumblr you’ve probably seen pretty much all my make-up looks this entire week. I’ve worn them all to work and they’ve stayed perfectly the whole day. Which surprises me considering most of it is L.A.Colors and that usually doesn’t stay on for very long.

I’ve been having fun. I don’t know if I’ll post anything on how to do the looks, because there’s like three-four colors on my eyes for most of them. So I don’t know.

Anyway, I’m on here because I just had the cutest thing happen at work today.

So for desserts we send out a tray or basket or something with eight of that dessert on it (one for every person at the table). So we had ice cream sandwiches today. As the counselors were getting the kids through the cleaning up process and trying to get all dessert baskets/extras rounded back up, a little boy came up the the window where I was dumping pitchers of water and asked me if I wanted an ice cream sandwich. I said yes and…. it was just the cutest thing ever.

I don’t know if he offered just because it was the last one in the basket or what, but I still really enjoyed that. So cute and sweet. I really appreciated it. I usually grab a dessert when(if) the extras come back to the kitchen and by then the ice cream is usually melted. It was just the nicest thing. 


My mom told my little sister this and she turned it into a joke about my height. She said the kid (the group was either fifth or fourth graders) probably gave it to me because I was just his size and something about a little crush.  

*sinking into embarrassment* 

Gotta love those buggers known as siblings…. I suppose.

Anyway, that just totally made my day. I really dislike kids, but sometimes they can really just be so cute. 


Anyone have any cute kids stories? Let me know. Also, if anyone wants to know how I did some of my weird as fuck cool make-up, let me know that too. 

Leave a comment below, say hi, or leave a cute story below. I don’t know, haha.

Bye guys. *waves*


SGTC Forever,

Samm Sanity